An Evening with David Bazan

Includes a special preview of a new documentary about Bazan, "Strange Negotiations," directed by Brandon Vedder

David Bazan gained indie rock notoriety in the late 90s and early 2000s as the frontman of Pedro the Lion, and was particularly noted as a Christian crossover success in that sphere. This changed around 2006. During a time of personal crisis, he began asking hefty theological questions intended to reinforce his faith. However, he ended up forgoing his band and, gradually, his lifelong faith. The four solo albums he has released since 2006 have largely focused on his brutally and faithfully honest reckoning with his own history and gradual journey away from Christian belief.

The chronicling of his religious shift can be deftly summed up by his own phrase—“strange negotiations.” This idea encapsulates the continual confusion, hardship, and alienation one can experience when attempting to critically interrogate an accepted and unexamined worldview. In “Strange Negotiations,” he sings,

In these
Strange negotiations
Man they really are getting me down
Strange negotiations
Feel like a stranger in my home town

Strange negotiations
You know I'm looking for a way around
All these
Strange negotiations

Bazan does not glorify disillusionment, nor his own unbelief, but rather, calls for a radical honesty. “Level With Yourself,” makes this call to others and then himself:

Just level with yourself
Level with yourself
Level with yourself
And be at peace with thee

I wanna level with myself
I wanna level with my friends
I wanna level with my kin
And be at peace with them

This song can be read as an indictment of the superficial and unexamined evangelical culture in which Bazan was raised. He calls for an open discourse, a rejection of taciturn convictions, and forthright confessions of not having everything figured out.

On his 2017 album Care, he is still exercising faithful attentiveness in chronicling his “strange negotiations.” The title track makes a characteristically frank assessment of infidelity—its present reality, allure, and destructive potential:

It's not like we're immune to it
It's not like we don't burn
We're just surrounded by carelessness
We know how much it hurts

“Permanent Record” touches upon his continued faith-haunting:

I was tremblin' with gooseflesh
The first time I prayed to speak in tongues
I saw it coming, but man, I tried to run
But now I make it up as I go along

Clearly, Bazan is still engaged in “strange negotiations,” wading through the confusion and contradictions that come with a gradual and messy journey like his. He is still asking big questions with blunt honesty and some four-letter words.

And people are still joining him in these “strange negotiations,” twenty-plus years into his career. One person in particular, who has literally joined Bazan for the last two years is filmmaker Brandon Vedder. He is in the process of making a documentary about Bazan, appropriately titled Strange Negotiations. The film’s Kickstarter page describes it as, “an exploration of modern American spirituality viewed through the lens of an extraordinary artist grappling with his personal faith.” As such, the in-progress film is not a strict concert doc, but rather serves as an invitation for viewers to take part in boldly honest discussions of faith and life. It will do so by telling the story of Bazan’s life and career, presenting his already-poignant exposition of his “strange negotiations” in a new way.

- Daniel Hickey